Poems

Like water my words stream through this pen,
So many people to please were to I begin?

They say that writing is a way to let go,
But people try to stop us when the words start to flow

That's too sad , why didn't you write more?,
Your words are too choppy, this story is a bore

Please keep stalling me when I am completing a thought,
I am sure your idea is better than the one I have got

When you are down of course you can write,
Just make sure not to put it on any web site

No matter how hard you may try,
Nobody wants to hear you're going to die

So get over the pain you have had in your days,
Keep it to yourself in your mind is where it stays

So even if I write until my hands are numb,
I will always have some person who thinks my lines are dumb

But you have to understand I really dont care how you feel,
I write what's in me, I write what is real

I am running through the woods
trying to escape you because one kiss and you can take my life
I will not slow down because you are close to death and without my nector you will die too
But I hear your foot steps coming closer and my pace quickens as much as I want to live I feel I need your kiss too
If I turn now you can sieze me and for that short time both our needs will be filled
Your teeth sink into my fresh and it is only painful for a moment because with this pain comes pleasure
I am close to death now but you know it my mine is spinning but somehow I feel like I should let you drain me anyways
You will live forever now and my body falls to the ground
These woods I was running through is now my resting place
I hope you remember who let you live while they had to die

You make me hate you not just some of the time
But you cant see how i am feeling not even inside my mind
Why does it have to come down to who is always right?
Why cant you see it hurts us just to see you fight?
I know I should be used to this because i have seen it all my life
Still it makes me want to stab myself a million times with this dull knife
You dont think of how we feel even if you did you would not care
You are so caught up in your own worlds cant you see this is unfair?
But guess what we wont grow up to be just like you
We have rolled away from your rotten apple tree and firmly grew
There are times when I wish that I could die
Somehow I cant go through with it and I just sit and cry
There is so much out there for me to live for outside of your walls
So as much as I want to kill myself sometimes I let go of the knife and it falls
But 5 minutes later you return changed happy and gay
Dad why does it always take alcohol to make you this way??

i search and search but will nver find
the sacred heart
that will be mine

a feeling, a moment that will never go
i pray and wonder
how can it be so??

they say you loved me but is it true?
i glance your way
will my thought come through

why do you say one thing and mean another
am i so bad
cant i be your other

so i am in search of a sacred heart
a love so special
we will never be apart

desperate for love...
i let my guard down
desperate for love...
i was tossed to the ground
desperate for love...
i took a chance
desperate for love...
i let him lead the dance
desperate for love...
i opened my heart
desperate for love...
i get broken apart
desperate for love...

i took a chance and got hurt bad,
all for a boy i never had

i thought for so long that i could never live without you, but now i know that
i can
i will always have you in my heart and think of you
what we had was special and things like that are never forgotten
it will remain
forever a part of me
i hope you will remembe me when...
you see a beautiful sunset or you look at the stars at night,
think for a moment of me
and know that i will not forget you ever
when the wind whispers,
and the sun shines
or the rain gently falls
will you for just a breif moment
Remember Me??

if you were here
i would never
be alone
always beside me
never apart, our hearts
will forever stay
with me, your memory, will always last
chances for love are often let slip by,
hold on to them
and never let them die
they will always be with me
your heart is precious just like
mine is
spinning out of control
alike but apart
crystal clear,
yet always blocked
hold me tight
and never let me go
please

i dont know how i am feeling because i am confused
was it love or was i just used?
i pull pictures of you from my mind
i am trying so hard to leave you behind
can i make you love me the way i did you?
or am i just praying for something that will never come true?
like shattered glass on the floor
a love like mine is hard to restore
you may not know it but i am crying inside
i cant handle these feelings they are too hard to hide