Poems

I wanted you out of my life with my heart in tact.
Now I find out ur moving and I have to look back.
No matter now mad I am you were apart of my life,
But in the end the words hurt like a knife.
But I just want a friendly goodbye,
So as I sit back and think I let out a sigh.
What to do if Ill never see you again.
Will it hurt or help my broken heart mend?
Is it so bad to want a goodbye?
Even thought when you leave apart of me will die?
I’m so confused so conflicted,
Goddamn I wish I wasn’t so dimwitted.
A friend once told me to ask myself this,
In regards to proving if you would be missed.
If I could go back and make it so we never met would I?
I can’t say I would, especially when you were the one who wiped my eyes.
But at the same time you caused me tears,
I wouldn’t take that as a reason to not talk to you for years.
So is it worth not saying goodbye I don’t know,
No matter what I wont let my broken heart show.

Why try when no one will give you a chance?
When everyone wants you to change your stance.
A girl who tries to fit in can only do so much,
beofr her two lives are discoverd and she is f*cked.
i know what its like for no one to give you a chance,
you try to explain yourslef but the yelling becomes inhanced.
go ahead judge me and sterotype as much as you can,
its the verbal abuse i cant stand.
When ppl get mad at you for everything you do,
f*ck them man they dont know what your going thru.
i know what its like to not be herd when you yell,
when theres another side of the story to tell.
but ofcoarse you dress this way so you must do that,
guess what people thats not a fact.
but everyone mas mistakes,
usualy theres too many feeling at stake.
but words are justy words right?
wrong again they can hurt like a knife.
when u try to be good around people who dont kno u,
You try but they see right thru you.
Those people arent going to give you a brake,
they dont know what your dealing with they need to awake.

Unable to sleep,
On the inside i weep.
Don’t leave like this,
I talk alot of sh*t but you will be missed.
Smoking a ciggarette tryin to relax and forget you leavin,
Don’t you remeber you were my reason?
I say I hate you but Im still in love,
A life without you isint something I i can rise above.
I’ve said and done some sh*t and Im sorry,
You can’t understand how much this hurts me.
I want to be able to see your face,
Please forgive me all the lies were mistakes.
How can I sleep at night known your gone for good?
Getting over you is something I can’t do but should.
Tell me what to do tell me what to say,
So we can be friends before that horrible day.
I wish love didint hurt,
I wish I could fix this and convert.
Bein a teen is hard without all this,
Oh my f*cking god Kyle you don’t know how much you’ll be missed.
I’ve ruined iit all and I can’t go back,
Theres only one thing I know is a fact.
Love hurts its way too true,
I know It first hand when It comes to you.
I love you so much why did this happen,
Can we fix this so we can go back to happy and laughing.