Poems

if i had a heart id find where it could hide ill never show my sweet kinded side, in this land its only the strong survive, if i could, id make everything die, theres no hope for me, theres no hope for you, the begining is the end, if we've had a start, im sure its the end

Come in where I dared to divide a moment,
where bare faces' sound screams of lingering anguish
cast a single white secret consumed by darkness.
where i search my soul for a naked dream in silence,
to find nothing more than merely and echo

[this bed of nails ive made for myself
a world of hollow passion, scars and death,
angels silently drink pleas of deadly tears,
follow the blue door to sneak free, sneak free]

choke your fears haunting your city,
a cold battle dulls the victory,
beneath a liars eye, lies a frigid heart
here ive dubbed a thief, seen a saint,
danced with the devil, and cried with god
you are a ghost within the wind
awaiting the breath to taste my soul
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existing beneath the ashes
the promise you made,
was a waste of your charm
moved me back to the beggining
begging liberty to grow me strong
its evident you desire the stars
but no freedom is won,
unless you embrace who you are

this design works out in my head
ill make my testimate instead
one, this town means nothing with no promising future
two, "protect and serve" is more of a slogan than a code of conduct
three, what has become of my past will die only to show the reality of life

your thoughts of me cant be surrendered
fight against me ull be put under
no worries in my mind anymore
ive played your mind games far too long
in due time ill settle the score

these are my plans on a silver platter
sh*t dropped will be crushed
the things left on will be devoured
your either on the right or the wrong
my sides will always be right so i suggest you stay out of the way
im free to live as long as i stay this way

the person you see in the mirror is just
a figmant of your imagination
your heart is in the wrong place as you try to get everything u need from me
come to my life and try to stand in my shoes,
everyday it gets harder as the world rests its weight on my already worn down feet
gone out of my way to please you all,
thrown it back in my face now im laughing cause youll reap what you sew
i never forgive but always forget
trust is an issue you havent earned yet

betrayed today once again
never trust ever again
fate is my pain
this fact will always remain
every thought has gone wrong
theyll never believe me unless im gone

ill break the lid and bury the years
for every tear there is a fear
since your not me
ill never care,
time to start this life on my own

your out of the picture how does it feel
last weeks news, your used by all
your turn to fall
ive been in this pit too long
see what i see when im gone
tired of a heartless person
so tired im lost in confusion

cleared my mind have i
ruthless are you
peice of sh*t are you
you are nothing compared to me
youll kneel you head beneath me
as other have done
youll fall only to be caught by noone

you cant make me into who you want
you cant shape me into who you are
cant be bought and molded to form
ive torn away from your lies
see me take control of my life

ive satisfied this thirst for life
who are you supposed to be
never have you been there for me
only an authority figure ive seen
your nothing i want to be

leaving this place i sit in disgust
your face burns my memory to dust
you always said i was out of control
whats true now that ive hit the road

in years to come youll wish id stayed,
by then ill have seen your memory fade
dawning of a new age i savor each breath
everyday goes by,i forgot u with each step

a deep darkness creeps inside of me
a scary place i wished id never be
life goes on but it seems to stand still
the voice in my head screams cries to kill
hate is just a lingering word,
its the last thing you wanted to say but the first in mind
mis-informed or just not careful,
if a picture is worth a thousand words
then well words will my picture tell
this voice remains still inside me,
I'm of heaven or hell?
No easy answer here
I'm left deciding

ive falling through the light but i cannot get to the dark.
ive falling in a place where im alone with but one heart
carry me home as this life is a story i must tell,
and im stuck alone,
between heaven and hell

started out as a normal tale,
a rebellious kid in which i could only fail
i believed i could survive
and was stronger than those,
but now the finger points to me,
its seems the gods chose,
they put be where i belong,
they put me where i can do no harm,
a threat to humanity,
a threat to my family,
tales spread quickly by word of mouth,
so by my mouth i tell,
the story of heaven and hell

ive falling through the light but i cannot get to the dark.
ive falling in a place where im alone with but one heart
choices of this life, is a story i must tell,
and im stuck alone,
between heaven and hell

in this place of light and dark,
you would think a place so clear,
all there is here, is sorrounded by fear,
fear blinds your mind, and the eyes hide the truth
its up to your heart, to lead you through,
never go against the feelings inside you,
or youll be by myside,
along with others that fell
stuck in the mist,
a choice between heaven and hell.

Life is a one way road,
whether you want it or not,
your in it without a choice
your in it and all you have is your voice,
now with a cold heart, i express cold thoughts
no worries or cares,
& i hate the one that lead me here,

at the end of this life,
the decisons you made on your one way road,
determine the life you lead,
i stake my claim and am reminded of when,
i made the choice to walk alone,
on my one way road

it was when i was caught in the open
that beared the truth to my eyes
has this choice i made
changed me into who i am today
take it away,
take it all away,
theres nothing i want more than to forget those days
a one way road, this f**king one way road
no regrets, just lessons learned,
not a thief, i make what ive earned

Fading in and out i lose consciousness,
shes stuck in my head as a curse for my superstition,
a kick in the face,
a stab in the back,
none of which in this place i feel,
and i feel alive, i feel im fine
if we are only a grain of sand on the beach,
what is it that divides us as unique
see what ive seen and youll see a retreat,
people are weak,
against the one, the Female
i end up weak, broken down by
the one who ruined my dream
but this wasnt just a dream,
it was a real thing,
all feeling all thinking,
taking control i await the prize in the price of an overdue paid toll
a toll in control of my life
in which i have recently just gained back
the hardest part that took place in my mind was erasing years frozen in my mind
now i have melted them away with this fire
fueled by anger, and a dream isnt just a dream, think of me, cause i know im always in your dreams
now the chance is 4ever lost
take a good look at what was the cost
a loss of a friend, like it even mattered then,
i know im still stuck deep with in,
but for you,
forever will it only be,
just a dream

Today i finally laid to rest
a burden buildin on my chest
this stories one i confess
an ugly truth behind the test

lifes a lie,truth is always hard to find
steerin these roads,harder now im blind
faith is lost, wrapped tight in the rope
finally ive found myself, truth be told

a fake offset in deep decline
today ill find hope im fine
heart broken in shrays of glass
challenged time flew by too fast

as the day turned to night
questions if i was right
better off now to forget the past
took a chance and ended last

so the stories told and so it goes
everyday ones heart forgoes,
lets the past build up on the chest
sometimes the time to forget
and finally lay to rest
a burden building on your chest