If I knew that life would come tumbling down on me as it has.. I would never have made any mistakes that lead to all heartbreaks. Never knew how big impact I have on everyone, how they always look up to me... but who is it that I can turn to.. when all storms cloud over me as gentle cries weep from me.
Never knew that life would almost come to an end to drinking, to smoking, to living with out the love of my life, only one who has my one beat rythmed heart.
Never knew I would go back to old life style just to know that I'm still alive to make it through this life. Does anyone see a difference in how I am silent and more closed up, so I wouldnt make anymore mistakes or broken hearts that stain these very hands. that are used in holding you sayin everything is alright. I chosen to cry everynight and keep out of sight, because I knew deep inside that no one would know the pain felt inside.
