i haddreamt a dream last night.
and yes...it was about you.
you held me close.
i could hear your heart.
you kissed my cheek.
my heart skipped a beat.
a tear rolls down my face.
and lands on your hand.
you asked me,
"why are you crying?"
i looked into your eyes.
and saw myself in a brown haze.
my face was pale.
my eyes swollen.
i looked like i was dead.
i look down.
shook my head.
and whispered,
"i thought you left me"
you hand lifts up my chin.
you stare into my eyes.
i felt a weakness in me.
i stare back.
only for a second.
your glare is so strong.
it makes my stomach crumble
you wrap your arms around me.
and whisper in my ear,
"ill never leave you, i promise"
i smile and lean my head on your shoulder.
you rest your head on mine.
then you whisper,
"its time to wake up now"
my eyes flash open.
large and wide.
i ask for you not to go.
but you sigh.
as the dark turn to light.
you start to fade.
i cry for you to come back.
but you're already gone.
i open my eyes.
im not dreaming now.
i look around my room.
but you're no where in sight.
theres a tear in my eye.
i get up.
get dressed.
and walk downstairs.
i sit in a chair.
and turn on the computer.
i sit.
and wait.
and i check my emails.
theres one from you.
subject: sorry.
i open and read it.
i suppose you're going to war.
you always wanted to.
i replay congratulations.
im so happy for you.
but i guess you're already gone.
you'll come home in a month.
i wait patiently.
i know you're having fun.
until that one day.
another email.
subject: we're so sorry about your loved one...
again. i open it.
and burst out in tears.
it says you died.
you were shot in the head.
i hold myself tightly.
and tell myself that im gonna be fine.
i get up.
and leave the room.
i decide to go for a walk.
down by the river, of course.
ive always loved the water.
as i approach.
i break into a run.
i jump off the dock.
and i go down.
i hold my breath.
but theres a leak in my mouth.
the water rushes in.
a gulp of water.
im drowning.
my hand goes up.
i scream for help.
no one can hear me.
im giving up.
my hand slides down.
but something holds on.
pulling me back up.
when i reach the top.
you're standing there.
pulling with all you can.
now im on my back.
gasping for air.
you're yelling.
"whats wrong with you?
honey?
why are you crying?"
i awoke from the daze.
i smile.
and i leap into your arms.
"i knew you wouldnt leave me!
i knew you didnt die."
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Published by lil_lizzy: 3:58 PM
Updated On: 2/11/2007 at 12:44 AM
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