I'm stoked that the summer weather is here!  No more rain for months now!  Of course that also means the coast is going to be fogged in most days and it's all cold.  I've been working like crazy and don't get to chat it up on here like I enjoy so much!  Meh, hope everyone is good and enjoying their summers! 

 

I'm hoping the housing market picks up a bit so I can start making more cake.

Well I just have to say I really miss all my sb.com peeps, this site has been such a great thing for so many years, and I feel like I'm not kickin' it with my friends when I'm not around.  So, the quick update for anyone who wonders where I've been:  I resigned my job and took a few weeks off to catch up on some much needed snowboard time.  I pretty much rode Kirkwood every day for about 3 weeks, stayed in my friends kick ass tour bus that his family with money bought, so it was totally mac and cheese and ramen and riding and sleeping and smoking blunts.  Clutch I tell you, I really needed it.  I had a great job lined up to start with a mortgage lender, and I just finished training.  I'm stoked because I pulled the usual KONK move, #1 guy in my class with two loans already in progress that look like they will fund.  Then I can start to get some real checks and things will settle down.  I kept saying things were gonna mellow out in 3 or 4 weeks perpetually, but it wasn't realistic considering my last job had no opportunity to change the income.  3k a month and that was it, no chance to change anything and my expenses are pretty high so I was hating life.  So there ya have it, getting some spring riding in and enjoying the new place.  Lots of cool people, catered lunches and free gourmet coffee, and a kick ass office building with marble floors, nice artwork, a big ass fountain in the middle of the lobby and skylights.....very decadent and totally perfect for the LEO in meeeeee.  Hopefully I can get moved into a better place where I can get the net, because I can't get it where I live now and it's been the death of me.  Meh, that's all I've got, ya'll rule and I miss ya.

Well it's the ole blend of having time off, many job offers on the table, beautiful weather and no money.  Talk about being in a tight spot.  I'm just trying to get THE best position with the most money, and find the balance.  For  example, less money and a cooler job, very doable.  At the moment, I'm chillin' at Starbucks sippin' coffee and planning to go ride some waves.  I wish I could get back to the days of owning my own rep agency and just checking in on people who are working to make me money, rather than actually doing it myself!  Meh, I'm glad I got so much action but I really need some CASH.  One particular guy is filthy rich and starting his own company, might be the golden goose right there!

This could be the last day at this job, and Tahoe is getting nuked, so there ya have it.  I shall miss you all for a bit whilst I reorganize, shred like a madman, and get into a position that will  pay me 6-8k and up.  I'm so about the money, not to be greedy, but jeez.  Life when you're broke is lame.  Moreover, I can't believe I've waited so long to bail from this job.  Psh, when I started putting my resume out there I was getting calls like a madman all day.  I have many great offers, but I'm really hoping on one in particular to come through that will pay me a pretty damn good CHUNK! 

So I've hit a wall.  I read back through all my blogs and it's pretty obvious.  I hate my job, it's close to being on the great wall of KONK's job casualty list.  That's the beauty of sales I guess, always another job around the corner, but damn someday I need to line up with what I want.  In the meantime, I just can't stand another day in the cube.  If they let you go you get  nice check on the spot.....yaaaaay check on the spot.  Seriously, I just can't take it and I put my resume up and I'm getting calls like crazy, so no worries. 

 

I guess I'll just completely chill and have fun with it for awhile.  Totally argue with the boss about everything, break the news to him about a thing called REALITY and not all his pipey goodness about what he thinks SHOULD happen with the company.  Ahhhh good times.  Life was so much more fun when I was an herb peddler in Michigan.  ~sigh~

Well I think anyone who even barely "knows" me has heard about my lame ass broke year, and how I've pretty much done nothing and been bored.  Enough of that cheesyness, I finally went to the mountains for about 5 days and it was epic.  One of those things where you clear you head and lots of things fall into clear perspective.  So yeah, just wanted to mention that guru moment I had and how life is back into shape now.  Good ole mountains...GAWD you just can't say enough about what it does for ya.  Ocean too, I just love the impact of nature.  Working in a cubicle just isn't cool, I can't do it anymore.

I'm stoked to drive up to the mountains to hang with my Mom, but I'm gonna miss the wifey a lot and I can't really go boarding.  Either way, I'm stoked to take a road trip.  3 days to just chill, I'm diggin' that.  See ya'll next week.

Gah!  I'm so tired today, I just can't stay up late like I used to.  This whole day I have had that feeling like I'm falling, like every 30 seconds, my body just wants to sleep so bad, I'm pretty much afraid to drive home.  Comfy seats, comfy car, warm sun, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ERRRRRTTTTT  CRASH!!!  Then I'll be in the pokey and REALLY won't be able to sleep.  I can't wait to get home and chill, haughhh gawd.

So Ashley and I have been together almost 5 years, and even though this is all mushy and gay, I have to say it's still REALLY hard for me to not sleep with her at night if I have to go out of town or vice versa.  I'm going up to visit my daughters gramma, (kinda my adopted Mom, really great lady) and Ashley has to work, so we'll have to spend two nights apart and I'm totally dreading it.  Don't I just sound a like a puss?  It's crazy how much I miss that woman when we aren't together, and I can definately say with confidence I have NEVER been in a relationship where I loved someone so completely even after 4 1/2 years!  I think 18 months is about the longest I've ever made it anyway.  When I was married it was pretty much over after 18 months, and then we just hung out like best friends for another 2 years or so before we finally made the big change and split up and go divorced.  So, kinda cool on Valentines day to be reminded of how in love I am and that I'm not even the least bit bored with Ashley yet, and I really look forward to every single night we spend together.  I hope it will always be like that, but at the same time I kinda hope I get over it so I'm not worried about how I can sleep without her.  Two things I have to have when I sleep....a fan blowing on my face, and Ashley spooned up to me.  Oh, actually 3, because I really like having one of those little round pillows between my knees, so much better that way!!!  Anyway, for anyone who tortured themselves by reading that rare moment of mush, let it be known that I'm very much in love.  Flirt as I do, and gawk at all the little hard bodies with no conscience, at the end of the day it's all about my baby and our great little family.  Love love love ha ha!!!

 

At least Taylor and I are gonna have "guys night" where we'll play video games and eat skittles and veg out!

I can't wait to go home and crash, I've been super dooper sleepy all day, dontcha hate that?  I had to force myself to stay awake, and I am stoked to go home and crawl right into bed, kick my feet around under the covers in complete excitement that I'm finally resting in bed, glorius bed.

Yup, I think I'm at the end of my rope with YET ANOTHER JOB.  I just can't stand inside sales I've decided.  The gay guy here who keeps saying "mahollow" to the Hawaii market, all unsure of himself sounding like a total gaper white boy.....I just can't stand it.  I don't know what my problem is, because he's a really nice guy and all that, but he's just SO f*ckING CHEESY!  He's all into the metaphysical shi*t, and the way he speaks to customers/prospective clients, it just makes me effing insane.  Always saying stuff like "you're amazing, thank you" or "I'm picking up something from you" followed by some gay ass "Sylvia" style reading over the phone, like he's some kind of Tarot card reading God that has psychic ability and insights.....it's just too much.  Little office with the same stupid stuff all day, but when he starts to call the Hawaii market with the whole "we've got some terriffic promotions" (all in the gay lisp) and then ending the call with the unsure of himself "mahallow" over and over again, it's like Chinese water torture.  Man I would just kill to win the lottery, I wouldn't even care about all the money and stuff I could do with it, I would just thank God with tears in my eyes that I didn't have to listen to all this gayness every day.  And then there's my manic boss, comes in all in a shi*tty mood and talk to everyone with total disrespect.  Never wants to hear the reality of things, always gets pissed at me because I'm "too focused on the numbers and stats".  Imagine that, numbers and stats in a sales job, what a crazy notion.  Why should I be educated with honors and point out the obvious fact that everything that comes out of his mouth is f*cking ridiculous when compared to the stats and reality.  Yup, I'm losing it:

 

THE EMPEROR WEARS NO CLOTHES.  THE EMPEROR WEARS NO CLOTHES.

 

YUP, I SAID IT. 

Ugh I get so bored at this job, listening to the same ole shi*t all day.  It's groundhog day I tell ya.  ~sigh~ when you work for a start up in a little tiny office for 8 hours a day and people make the SAME calls and say the SAME shi*t and make the SAME jokes and tell the SAME stories, well I'll be damned if it doesn't just make me want to kill kill killllllll.  ARG!!  I'm just about to walk into my boss and be all "can't do it anymore chief, sorrry"  Of course I won't do that because I need the money, but good god it's lame.  The gay guy calling Hawaii and trying to say "mahallow" at the end of every call, just makes me want to throw a brick over the cubicle and pray for silence.  Glorius silence. 

I have the whole weekend with no kids, ohhhhh the possibilities.  I think we might just lay around in our undies and smoke ghanj and eat King Dons all day, clean the house a lot (we just moved) and get a ton of rest.  Man I'm tellin ya when you have kids it's just brutal after awhile when you realize how much you are jonesing to have time to yourself and a couple of days of total peace and quiet.....SHEESH.  I can't even wait, it's gonna be so awesome.  I'll be thinking of all my li'l buddies on here wishing we could all kick it at some phat resort.  Such a poor year for me, but I definately want my next trip to be to BC, so I can visit Joe and Kendrat (and her shred man of new wonderfulness) and maybe even gunny and swin, wouldn't that just be dandy? 

 

I want to meet a lot of people in Canada, and party there, so it's my next vacation for sure. 

Well it didn't work out with the old company after all, sad but true.  At one point in the negotiation, the controller stated "well you didn't produce anything during the last two months" and that was when I knew it would never work out and I just about flipped out.  I reminded them that I worked a huge deal that got signed out from under me which cost me 6k in commission and I never even got an apology.  I reminded them that I wrote over 200k in business and they paid me 14k.  I went through all of that and ended the call by telling them I have complete respect for them personally, but if they thought they would accomplish their goals with what they were offering they were out of their MINDS!!!!

Welp, I have a conference call scheduled tommorrow with my old boss and the controller, to see if they can hammer out an offer with me to get me to come back into the wonderful world of funerals and working with terminal people.  It sounds odd, but I really miss it, and I hope it works out.  It's a big honor being given the trust to help plan somebody's mom or dad's funeral, or whatever, it's a big deal.  To work with a terminal person, arrange all of their last wishes, and then bury them 6 months later, is both intense and totally rewarding at the same time.  Although a lot of people think the whole thing is creepy, once they understand the depth to what I do, they get it.  The place is beautiful too, and with the "Six Feet Under" connection and the Hollywood location, I'm always meeting cool people and getting to be part of press release stories and Discovery documentaries and stuff like that.  Man, if they can just offer me a good salary and benny's, I'll be so happy.  It's like winning money kinda.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed. 

There are so many cool people on this site that I am thankful for.  Whether it's Kendra checking in to read my blog and say hi, or swmike doing everything he can to help me make it to the meet, or Shay and Gary giving me shiz to come out and ride in Colorado, I am stoked there are so many great people on this site that I've been talking to for so long.  I wish I could just fly all over the world and meet everyone, wouldn't that just be the bees knees?  The cats pajamas?  (I love those old sayings ha ha)

Stupid winter.  It's 20 degrees in Northern Cali, I've had to scrape my windshield every day for a week, and it's supposed to stay this way for another week, but no snow, just cold as hell.  My job is totally lame, just can't find the right gig lately for what I expect to get paid, so I'm totally broke, gonna miss the meet more than likely.

 

Getting ready to move tommorrow, that should be fun when it's all over, but ya'll know how moving is....DEOMMMMMM!!!!  So yeah, just had to vent, peaks and valleys and all that, I've been in a major slump for like 3 months, but if all goes well it will mellow out by the end of February or early March.  Crazy since last year was so epic and this year is so gay.  I have NOooooo work ethic sadly enough.

Much to my amazement my old company called me today to digress that I was actually writing a lot of business for them and they would like to renegotiate an offer.  That could either work out great or end up driving me insane, and sadly it's more likely to be the latter.  Hopefully they will pony up when I lay out my offer.  I need a new laptop, Blackberry with the bill covered, benefits re-instated, and a higher base salary.  If they go for it, I'll be so thrilled, though it will mean I got back to the 60 hour weekly minimum schedule and pretty much leave in the dark, come home in the dark, and work hecka hours.  I don't mind however, I'll work 60+ hours each week NO PROBLEMO if I'm making enough money to not be trippin.  It's always nice to have enough money to get lunches, all the coffee and Red Bull I can stand, and gernerally just being well funded enough to live comfortably and not be ALWAYS stressing about paying my bills.  Good ole Cali, beautiful place to live, but not so cheap.

You know you're bored when you can't even find stuff to screw around and do while you're at work.  Short of kickin' it on metacafe.com, which will undoubtedly end in me looking at stuff that I shouldn't at work, I just can't stand it.  Nobody is around, so all I get to hear all day is "no, he's out for the HOLIDAYS suckaaaaaaa" all day.  Not to mention it's dumping in Tahoe and I'm all about being up there right now.  I just want to go home, get under a big blanket with the wifey, and have a nice relaxing evening during which there will hopefully be a random knock on the door where a mysterious man in a top hat hands me a duffle bag full of money.  MMMMMM hmmmm.  Really need that duffle bag full of money.

Yup, that's right.  The ups and downs, but today I've got it goin' on, and last week was epic too.  Now I get to watch other people look sick to their guts like I did when my numbers were down.  I wrote enough in the last week to make up for the last month and the next three if I did nothing more.  Ah, when it's good it's good.  Looks like I'll be able to get some nice days in next month, I'm totally planning for it!  Stupid Tahoe, if we could just get some major dumpage I'd be STOKED!!