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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Dave,
As im sitting here, sweating from running, listening to john mayer..ironicly, keep looking up to see if i have that new message, i think, i realize, i hope. Time after time, this hope, just keeps getting tunred down. I just keep waiting for that "one day and some day". But as this time goes on, it makes it harder and harder to wait for. Thats when the realization kicks in. Do i really wanna be with someone who makes me wait like this? Who will make me go crazy because i just want him? Do i really want someone who makes me cry ever night and stay up waiting, only to find in the morning that it was another let down of a night? No, no dave i dont. So why you ask, why do i continue to wait, why do i continue to put myself through this pain and misery when i could any it any time i choose? Becuase im in love with you and its not that easy to just let it go. I tell myself that i will be ok and everything will be fine. But yet, there's that one part of me that say no, no i wont. I need you, i will always love you and of course always want you, dont give up, he'll come around some day. So i don't, i wait. And i wait and wait and wait. As each day passes, I hope, as each night rolls around, I cry, all because i dont want to give up on you, all because i still have my faith, my hope. Dave i'll always love YOU, it will always be YOU, but one day, im going to give up, my hope will be gone because its so sick and tired of being let down every single now. There is only one you, but there are people that are like you only will treat me better, will love me too. So, in the words of john mayer "I will find another you."
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Im sorry dave. Ok, is that all you wanted to hear? I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being a bitch. I'm sorry for the things i said. I'm sorry it has to be like this. Yeah, I feel bad for what I said. But I meant every word, and i'm sticking to it. Dave, I like you, and im always gonna. I may move on. No, I will move on. Im gonna date other guys. But you, you'll still be in my mind each and every day. Ill still be in love with you, ill always be in love with you. Im never going to forget about you. When were 30 dave, ill still remember you. The times we had, me and you both will never forget. Dave, your gonna see other people too. Youll move on too, if you havent already. Who knows. But in the end, youll realize its me. Its me your in love with, its me you wanna be with. So when i said im done waiting for you i mean im done for now. Im done playing the game. But ill always be waiting forever for you to realize. I dont care how long it takes, but youll see it one day. I know you will. And when that day comes, ill be done waiting.
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Published by kindra: 7:07 PM
Updated On: 12/2/2008 at 7:08 PM
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
dave,
the truth.
the truth is, im totally crazy for you. I broke up with my boyfriend because i dont like him, i dont want him. I want you. And that not really fair to do to him. It's always gonna be you dave. always. thats something thats just not going to change. Ive spent many many days crying my eyes out because the one thing i want, i can never have. I dont know how you truly feel about me, and i probably never will. To me, it seems like you've been playing games with me for the past 2 years. You know ill always come back to you, even when i have an amazing guy. You wants some, just call me cause ill be by you in a second. You have so much power over me its sad. Then new girls come along, forget about me. But when thats over, you come back to me, cause you know ill be here. Im not dumb, if you think i am. I know how it works. I just suck at this game and fall for it everytime. Its a pretty jackass move tho, to play with peoples feelings like you do. I mean what inconsideret a**hole would ever do that to someone, knowing how in love with them they are. Knowing that every night their waiting for him, to call, to text. And every night, they wait and wait. And every morning when they wake up, nothing. Breaking their heart, slowly, one by one. And in the end, what happens? Absolutly nothing. They spent their whole life waiting, being played, broken hearted, and they never gained a single thing. Just love a hell of a lot. Dave you know damn well that were not just "friends". Were never gonna be and never can be "friends". Cause ill always be in love with you. And you, you'll always just want some from me, cause thats probably all im good for. You'd think id be used to it by now. I guess i am, i know whats gonna happen, and im still in love with you.
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Published by kindra: 6:10 PM
Updated On: 11/20/2008 at 6:15 PM
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