Blogs Results

k, i kno my profile sux right now but im tryin 2 get sum pics on n it just isnt happening!

 

u got any tips gimme a shout jst leave a comment!

 

ANNOYING!

whats happening my name is travis newton i am from kelona B.C. and i moved to ontario about two and a half years ago.
Its cool down here, but snowboarding isnt as good you just have to get creative. i like snow, snowboarding, bunnys, cheese cake, ice tea, paper clips, having snow down the back, and 360's. i dont like posers(people who say they can do things they cant),roaches burning my fingers, bitchy girls, wiping out on rails, and emo. o and Travis Rice rules

 

 

 

But anyway lets stop all this nonsense that im talking about above i was really going to make this blog totally good i thought about it all week trying to make it good for you and icouldnt think of a damn thing yeah not like the rest of them ...Love me thats all i ask of you i have to stop totally stop talking about love maybe its  a waist of time i mean ...idk you drive me insane i mean you really do ........... In a couple of yrs i will  be someones wife thats pretty damn crazy , i was thinking this mornng around 6:15am that i felt like going swimming even though i didnt .Hmm why do I see you lookin at me everytime I close my eyes.Have u ever felt like someone has been in your room but it wasnt you and it wasnt ur mom or dad i had that feeling last night  but early that day i had a friend come and search my whole room even my bathroom  in my room but no one was there  but i just couldnt have that chance cause i was gonna be alone yesterday (thurdsay) anyway so s i slept down stars with my big baby malibu .I had a panic attack isnt that great when i was driving to work i only get them once in a while but mostly all this week actually it suxs it really does ..I guess in the end you start thinking back to the beginning......yeah know ?

 

so heres a piece of advice-

let go when ur hurting to much,

give up when love isnt enough,

and move on when things are not like they were before,

for sure theres someone out there

who will love u evan more!

 ok dont u hate it wen guys tell u how bigt here dicks r and then they end up being like 2 inches? well it is nasty i think but yea i hope if u r a girl and have a bf his dick isnt that small couse if it  is then that is plain sad. but yea

k so its an off day and im bored. so i figured i would blog lol. i need a boyfriend. but....he has to have tons of female friends, and love me with every part of his being. he has to love me more than life. i want him to be a foot taller than me and i want him have purple hair. i want him to have a lisp and an accent. i want him to respect me and open doors for me.i want him to hold me through tough times. and sleep in the same bed and just hold eachother without doing a thing. i want along term relationship...meaning like 2 yrs. i want him to be kind of a smartass. i want him to be smart and loyal and to speak his mind. i want to push through his fear and do something crazy. i want him to be able to show me he loves me without saying a word. i want him to be able to touch me and me cringe inside with passion and fire and fear and love and joy and sadness and i want to not be able to look into his eyes because he is too tall. i want him to be loving and proud to have me. cause i would be proud to have him. i want to be pointed out in the crowd and hear..."yeah thats her". i want to hear his voice in my mind. i want to day dream about him all the time. i want him to buy me nothing, to ask nothing of what i want. cause if i could find this guy...i wouldnt need a thing. i want to be able to drink, cause he is my water. i want to be able to breath, cause he is my breath. i want to be able to see, cause he is my sight. i want to be able to talk, cause he is my words. i want to be able to live, cause he is my life. i want to hear his voice everymorning even though he isnt beside me. i want to feel his touch when im sad, even though he is no where near me. i want to see his face through my tears, though he is a million miles away. i want this kind of man. i want to get butterflies just thinking about him. i want to a cramp in my hand from typing to him. i want to get sick from trying to run to far to reach him. i want him to believe me, trust me, love me, hold me. i want to wake up from comatose to him. i want to be set on fire from his kisses. i want to feel no pain for he is my antidote. i want to be set free for he holds the key. i want to fly for he is my wings. i want to love him, hold him, touch him. i want to knock him out with my kisses,put him to sleep with touch, make him drown with me gaze. i want to fall asleep in his eyes. i want...i want....i want....i want. i know i cant find this type of guy cause well.....he doesnt exist. but.....if there is a person out there that you know..or if its you....that even closely comes to this. let me know. cause i would kill to met you.

 

Rachel

heyz everybody

my grades in school right now suck but my dad understands cuz its an advanced school. i'm currently very very busy. i dont think poetry is my forte anymore they all sound emo which i'm not. But my writing is taking off yay i just need to finish my novel and send it to an editor then cross your fingers it might be published.

Friday i sang my first song written completely by me at the coffeehouse thing my school did i think i sounded great even though i was very nervous. i'm going to keep working on it.

Right now i am currently still helping my father design his tatoos and i am planning to be a tatoo artist sometime in the future.

Thread fair is approaching fast. i just got some great material and will be working my ass off to finish making these clothes for the fashion show/competition there so awesome.

Currently i am single and hating it. guys here in austin must suck for not seeing how awesome i am. but i dont lose faith. my social life is booming my weekends are definatly busy and fun

this summer is going to be interesting. i usually go out of town to stay with my grandma well she moved out of state so i dont know anymore.

just one more year before i get my licencse and truck!

well my music taste is braodening so please send me new music to look up i love finding new cool music

well peace!

 

 

What truly matters in life? grades school a job a career money, all worthless . day to day working our fingers to the bones for what? yeah i'm somewhat smart but school seems so pointless at times. i dont want to be trapped in life by doing something i cant stand. in the end its the memories that matter memories of friends family happy times. in the end i wont care if i got an a on the stupid test or not i'm going to care about what i did in life. i'm going to care if i helped find the cure for some fatal disease. can the world please wake up inside and see money isn't the answer, money isnt happiness. money is corruption and greed.  i feel like a rambling fool lost in this caotic society. if i work hard on the things i dont like then i get less sleep get somewhat better grades and then things go wrong. i dont have bad luck just random things happen at random times. in the end what is best for the soul and happyness is much more important than what was better for school or a job. if i ever work in a real office i swear my clothes will never match! yes i do design clothes and see how aweful that could be but it would be so much fun not to care. right now i cant sleep and i have a stupid standerd required test tomarrow, thank you texas shove more pass the test or stay back a grade bs down my throat. he he i'm wearing pajamas tomarrow with big homer simpson slippers. and maybe even dorky pigtails, my hair is flaming orange so i'll add in some blotches and streaks of red and black just to distract the other kids from their tests.

I love to skate n stuff, but their aint any local skate parks that i can go to. I'm getting sick of the usual manuals n ollies n flat land tricks. there aint anywhere to pull of sum vert tricks. it really blows.

 

when i first started, i used to love goin out wiv my friends n tryin to do an ollie, or a grind or something. but now im better than i was, there isnt anywhere to pull sum decend trix. dont get me wrong, i still love skatin wiv my friends but we seemed to av lapsed in how often we go cos there aint anywhere to go!

Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ignore

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

I listen to you cry
A cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Please understand

Lay rotting where I fall
I'm dead from bad intentions
Suffocated and embalmed
And now all our dreams are cashed in
You swore you wouldn't lose then lost your brain
You make a sound that feels like pain

So please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you

 

curiosity.

please keep me going.

 

less involved.
less concerned.
less attached.
is what i need to be.

its hard when you believe you live
to grow and learn with others.
its hard when growth and learning from others
requires letting them in. and becoming close.

and its hard when they dont care as much as you do.

ive always been there for other people.
ive always been there when im needed.
ive always been a genuinely caring person.

and im afraid that is my weakness as well as my strength.

im an open book. yet im afraid to get to close.
aill push u away without knowing it

i dont want to be that way anymore

its not who i think i am

i still care. im still here.
but i cant let this happen to me anymore.
i cant allow myself to get attached
to those who wont let themselves at all.
who dont care as much as i do.

its hard to let go.

i dont want...letting go of fear? of past mistakes? Of past situations..

ive never been one to depend on others to make me happy.
nor was i ever one to let them bring me down.
but letting yourself be attached..
is letting others have some kind of control of your emotions.

and im grabbing hold. gripping control again.

I shouldnt care so much...isnt that what u want?

this cant happen anymore.
i wont let it.

im getting myself back

 

 My life sure isnt what it used to be... I am going threw a hard time right now I feel like I am struggling to just stay above the water. I dont want to be sufficated any longer. I am trying so hard just to be on top of things that it makes my life a living hell. I want to just give up. It feels like that it would be the easy way out, and thats what I am looking for. I am struggling with substance abuse and I am confronted with it every single day of my life. I am only 17 I shouldnt have to be dealing with all of this pain and hurt in my life. I no longer living my faimly anymore. I used to live in Montana with my Aunt Kathy, I was with her since I was 5yrs to 16yrs she became my mother. I was forced to go live with my real mother about a year ago cause of issues far from my grasp to take care of. My real mother has no sence of reality. I never wanted to live with her. I didnt know her at all. Her and I never have gotten along in the past so why should we now? Well we didnt work out she gave up custody of me to the state so now I live in a foster home. Dont get me wrong I like it there, but I miss my family very much so. I havnt seen my Aunt Kathy in over a year. She has been my support as much as she can be from a distance. I lost everything when I moved to Utah,friends family  freedom my life.