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so its 5 am.. I'e been up drinking and playing halo with ny roommates.... and then Marcy came over and brought some girls over... marcy and I drank lots of whiskey together... and now she's passed out on the couch and I'm taking a reak from halo.
I might pass out in a few minutes.. I'm just drunk and wanted to see fi I can actually type right now.
there is some girl passed out next to me.. her name is renee. that's all I know.
I'm going to go get some cereal and then head off to b ed. p.s beer and whiskey and weed are a great mix.
love
jesus
I need to do something for myself.
I told my parents about how I just want to go back home and move to the mountains to be a snowbum... they screamed at me... f*ck man... I'm 22 years old... let me do what I want.
so I guess that plan went right out the window.
My girlfriend and I are uh... well... we're pretty much done and over with.
On the bright side... I might just move home to california. Forest(my best friend and roommate) and I are talking abuot dropping everything and moving out there.
My dad said he'd still hire me if I did... then at least I'd have a job there right away.. and we can snowboard just abuot everyday till the snow is gone in like june. hahah.
anyway... thats where I'm at.... minus the part that I don't know where my head and heart are at right now.... because they're in two different places.
I hate relationships... I should just stop dating and enter the seminary.
So... my girlfriend is coming to stay with me for a week.we were having some problems so we decided that it might help if we took a break to relax and clear our heads. Anyway.. it's been working in our favor..... it's still hard.. but i think it was a good idea.
I now have a plan I think.... and it's wierd.. because none of it directly deals with her and I...
I'm quitting smoking cigarettes... by eating right, working out constantly, and not drinking coffee or alchohol. I'm too poor for all that snazzy stuff that is supposed to miraculously make you quit smoking.
I'm also searching like mad for a job and place to live in Madison.
I've got college in a few months, so that's another swift kick in the ass to get going.
I'm also taking a step to help curb my depression... I've surrounded myself with supportive people and again.. not drinking(so much... a beer with dinner sometimes), I'm not being such a damn pothead(although smoking herbs helps).. and again.. I'm excercising.
Both Casie and I are also trying really hard to help eachother realize that we both are at fault here for our problems together, so instead of us blowing up... we have been just letting the other vent until we(she or I) is done.. then calmly talking to eachother about it.
I like this plan.. because it's working.
I feel better, she feels better.. and now I think that this next week will go much more smoothly, and we will both be alright again.
I am in love.... i never thought that it would happen again after jess... but then again.. I'm only 22.. and I'll be 23 next month.
good job team.
oh yeah, and I'm being confirmed this weekend, and my family is flying out here from California... I'm pretty stoked... oh.. and casie is going to meet my whole family.
I'm so glad that they all love her.
my sisters and her and my mom all get along so well.. it's almost creepy.
sweet.
I might be moving back to California to take over the family business.
it scares the shi*t out of me.
I don't know the first thing about running a business like that. it's quite successful and getting kind of large. my parents(my dad is the sole owner) said I should expand it... to Wisconsin and Minnesota... especially in this area since it's expanding so fast.
I've got college.... one of my biggest worries is that I won't be able to go to college and run this business at the same time.
chyeeah.... I don't know what to do.
I guess I just have to go for it....
"dont' fear it.. just charge it"... right?
right?
why does everything have to get so screwed up all the time?
why?
I'm thinking of selling both of my snowboards now... so if anybody wants to buy a brand new Jeenyus board.. it's a 149.... with flow bindings... let me know.
I have to pay rent... and I need to get the f*ck out of this town.
I'm also getting rid of my Ipod, cd player and guitars and drums.
this really really really sucks.
it makes me want to cry.
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Published by agentzero: 12:42 PM
Updated On: 3/4/2008 at 3:26 PM
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
this is our secret, that nobody else knows.
these are our iced tears, that fall with the snow.
we wonder if we can ever go back.... to the promise that we made...
god knows... I'll never forget that.
I love you still... my deadly little pill.
tell me lovingly, are you still that little girl I met on the hill?
do you love me still?
I can't wrap my head around what happened... what went wrong...
so here I sit... filling my lungs from the bong.
I love you still,and I always will... i meant it when I said it...
even though.... it wasn't enough... it didn't mean shi*t.
at least we'll always have afton.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
so I'm still in Menomonie, I've been out only a few times at a resort this year because of money issues, but I have been out boarding around the city... building my own jumps and hitting ledges and stairs and gaps and shi*t. :)
I LOVE my new board. wooo! it's so fast and so responsive.
I have a nephew now, he's so cute. his name is Trace.
lately forest and myself have been writing some new songs... we've written a couple ska songs and some songs that are like a mix of Sublime and and the transplants. :)
this Saturday I'm going to LaCross to an Obama rally, then afterwards going to this bar where my friends band is playing. :) they're f*cking awesome.. they're called the Pull Out Method. Logan the guitarist and I are playing in a beerpong tournament after the show.
he's pretty good too, so we should have no problem cleaning house.
what else is new? oh yeah... um... i think I'm going to put my mohawk back up today.... I just have to get off my ass today and shave my head again.
Malou is here from Denmark... she's staying with at my house for the next few days before she goes back to her home in Copenhagen. :) I like having her here... she's amazed by everything I cook. i like that.
last night, I cooked a chicken with this gnarly marinade that I make, and potatos and veggies. then we had some homemade rhubarb wine... oh man... so good!
meh.
I miss you.
oh yeah... hey WISCONSONITES!!!!!!! GO VOTE ON THE 19TH!!!!!!!!
OBAMA '08
So I moved back to Menomonie for a little while, till like February.
I'm on my way to quit smoking, it's going pretty well. I've started working out. forest(my best friend/roommate) and I go to the gym.
shi*t, I've even cut waaaaaay down on the drinking.... it was getting pretty bad. now, I really only drink when I play beer pong(which is like every friday night or sometimes on saturdays)... I'm still undefeated, so that's good.
I still like my herbs, but even that has been cut way down.
since the ex and I split... shi*t kinda hit the fan for a while and I was mess, but I've got my life back on track. got a new girl... I think she's the tops.
I've got two bands going right now.
the one is like a surf rock/ mellow type acoustic project, and then I've got a metal band called Goat Scroat Gauntlet.
I've started writing stories and comics again as well.
yeah, I'm sure you can tell that I'm trying to stay busy.... if I don't.... I collapse and get into a bunch of shi*t that only brings me down. I am Mr. Selfdestruct, and I'm trying to change that. :) I'm doing pretty good with it too.
oh yeah.. my dad comes out to WI from CA next week, and my girlfriend comes up from Madison at the same time... so I'm super excited for that. Dad and I are going snowboarding at Welch, and I'm going to bring Casie(it's her first time), and my roommate/best friend(forest).
god damn, I can't wait.
TONIGHT, I'm going snowboarding around UW-Stout... there's some pretty rad hand rails, and some gaps and drops and shi*t. I've got an idea for some footy... but it requires a P.O.S. car that I can smash up and land on, and some lights, and somebody with a video camera....
f*ck, I need to find a filmer/photographer... my crew's filmer is lazy, and never wants t go out anymore. damn him
p.s. Bullet for my Vallentine = great music in the morning to get me going. woo!
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Published by agentzero: 9:01 AM
Updated On: 1/7/2008 at 11:02 AM
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Friday, December 07, 2007
eh... so I've been hitting up local shi*t.. little stair sets I can find, and some rails....
I want to try a spiral stair case. I don't know why... it just sounds... gnarly. I want to try it.... I want to pull it.... I also want to see what it's like when I fly off the side of it. hahaha.
ahhh I'm baked.
why am I even sitting here? f*ck this.
I'm going to ride... build some jumps or something. if anybody wants to hit some shi*t... call me. 608.658.1887
late.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
first decent dump of the season!
I'm stoked... gonna go boarding this weekend at cascade or tyrol I think.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
so I just moved to madison, and I need to find a new crew to ride with... and new spots to hit...
I really want to compete this year but I don't know if I'll have the time or the money.
If I can't compete, that's fine, but I really need to find a new crew to film with.
any takers?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Getting a new board for christmas... thanks dad!
I'm glad he's so supportive of my love for this thing we call snowboarding.
I think we should go back to calling it "Snurfing"... snow surfing. :) there's a little bit of snowboard history for ya. 
In Cali for a week, helping my dad finish up a job.
just found out that in January he's having open heart surgery that will save his life... I was kind of hurt and upset because the only person he told was my sister, and won't talk about it with me.
so i guess sometime in Jan... either my sister or myself will be coming back out to Cali for a few weeks to take care of him, or probably, more than likely both of us.... Britt will take care of Dad, and I will take over his business, and do the work while he's recovering.
I hope he'll be ok. i pray.
Jess and I are doing better. :)
still so very very very much in love with that woman. :)
she makes me melt.... haha.. get it... melt? snow...
no? don't worry about it. :-p
Thursday, November 16, 2006
I'm getting on some new meds... hopefully I'll feel better. :)
found some people to film with around Menomonie.
Jess and I are doing pretty well :) I love my girlfriend to death... she's my angel.
Iwish it would just snow like 8 or 10 inches.... enough for me to make some kickers and stuff.
f*ck.
I'm off to make some tea and read a book and smoke a bowl.
why am I on here?
i don't even know anymore...
I thought I'd meet some cool people... and I haven't.. no, I take that back... I started talking to two people that i like. Matt and Kenzie.. you guys rock..
other than that.. this site is L A M E.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
dude, somebody keeps giving me negative points on that karma thingy... it didn't bother me untill now...
WHAT THE f*ck?
if you have a problem with me.. don't be a dick.. say something. clear the air.
f*cknig christ man...
a**holes.
p.s.
this site = L A M E... but it's the only place I get to talk to other snowboarders. *shrugs*
pros and cons...pros and cons.
I leave for cali today.
f*ck off.
I miss my girlfriend.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
it's here it's here!!!
it snowed a little yesterday, and all day today... now... we just need it to stick... and not melt.
Jess and I are going to throw a Jibfest.
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