I can't remember a time when you weren't trying to make me smile

or when you were trying to get me to laugh when i was upset and it normally

always worked even though i didn't want it to i just wanted to be alone to

deal with my pain in my own way but somehow you knew that if i was left

to deal with it by myself i would wind up dead and you would always say i

can't live without you plz don't leave me i love you but i just didn't seem to

listen cause one day when you came to check on me after a big fight with

my parents you didn't find what you were expecting all you found was my

family all in one room crying because i had decided that i couldn't take it

anymore and i killed myself i didn't even keep my promise to you and call if i

got depressed all i was thinking of was my own pain and how happy i thought

everyone would be without me even though you had always told me that if i

died no one would be happy they would all be sad but did i believe you no

i couldn't see past my feeling i was so selfish i never even considered how

you my one and only would feel if only i would have thought about your

feelings then maybe just maybe i would be alive today but things happen as

everyone knows but yeah everyone hates me for what i did but have you

ever cared about what people said about your baby girl obviouisly not

cause you were taking up for me even durring my funral you promised me

that you would always love and you kept your promise and i'll always love

you for it.