And pursuing my career as an SVMer hahaha....

 

Yessssssss.

And now I'm stuck here for another year and a half. I wish my degree was offered at IUSB or SMC or something. That is honest to God the only reason I'm still here. Stupid nasty big cities that have creeps on scooters everywhere are not cool!

 

I miss the old me. The old me with the great friends. I miss the Megan, Jordan, Matt, Drew days more than anything in the world right now. I think that's why I'm strugglin so bad right now haha.... Life just isn't the same. It's almost like Jordan and I were the glue, the "mom and dad" (like Drew said haha) that held us all together... and now we're done. Wow, newsflash, Megan... this all happened a year ago! Hah I'm gay. Anyway, I just hope that I don't start drifting away from Matt and Drew. I know Jordan and I have no hope... ::sigh:: A year and some later... umm... umm... why does the break-up still kind of suck? Haha. Life is just blah without those boys. They were always down for something. The people down here are boring as f*ck. All they do is drink... which is fun on occasion, but every night of the week? Flippin alcoholics haha. I miss wandering around downtown or playing poker and eating pancakes haha. I especially miss Swiss with them. I really don't think there will be a point in my life ever again that can compare to those days. And playing cards all day on Sundays with Jordan because there was never anything better to do haha. Well, it makes me feel better that he's with a real cool girl now, though. I won't lie... I think she's really good for him.

 

Time to move on. Finally. Blah.

I think I'm moving to Evansville for my second semester of school. Evansville is bangin! The only problem... no snow. And that is a huge problem. That's not until mid January though... so I'll still have some time at Swiss. Pluuusss... I donno. I'll be home in February twice for sure.... Yeah, this could work out.

 

 

I hate Elkhart. There's nothing left.

I ordered my new board and bindings on Sunday (I definitely had a dream that I already had them last night... weird!) and paid for 3 day shipping so that they would be here before I went up North.... And now I'm probably not going. Every single one of my friends that beg to go up with me all the time can't go because of work. Kelly and I were supposed to go, but that probably won't happen now because she hurt herself pretty bad last night, and Sarah wants to stay here for the rail jam this weekend. I guess that's a prop to not going by myself... I could do the rail jam. But I've got nothin so it would be gay anyway. Noooo! It's Slush Cup weekend lol.. I was sooo exciiiited.

 

Maybe I will just stay here.... The competition would be fun if we were all there like that one year. I had a hard enough time landing switch off the box before they raised it again, though. I'm not so good at the green rail, or the kink box, never tried nessy, and I haven't touched the c-box since they raised that one as well. Basically, it wouldn't be worth it. Aaaah, but it would be fun, and that's all that matters lol. So, unless Kelly gets better in 2 days, I'm stayin here.

 

I just got really excited about my new board!!!! And bindings cuz' mine are all broken and stuff!!! And they'll be here TODAY! And I don't have to work at all this weekend now... Friday-Sunday. Awesome. This day feels like it should just be awesome, but it really hasn't started off too well. It has, but it hasn't. I should be at school right now, but I forgot my homework so I came home and stayed here and had my mom call in, but I guess I'll go back now : / Normally, I wouldn't care if I had forgotten my homework lol, but this was worth like 100 points so I felt the need to get it lol.

 

 

Ummm... ummm... ummm....

 

My stars aligned... lol.

Yeah, it was tough shi*t, but it all worked out.

I decided on IUSB... yay... so that I could still snowboard because it's my only hobby because I'm a loser, but oh weeelll. Actually, if I wanted to snowboard... I would probably screw college and go to Oregon, but in all honestly, I think I'm just too scared to go too far away lol. Oooooh well again.

 

I like making new friends.

 

I'm just going to pretend like this past week didn't happen. I'll just pretend my whole body isn't bruised up because I couldn't do anything right for the life of me. Booo hooo.

 

Stupid ice storm....

 

 I want to buy a new board. Mine is jacked... I love it, but buying a new board sounds exciting right now. Even though it's almost March.... I'll have it already for next year then. Plus, I've had mine for like 3 seasons now. Wow, it seems like I've had it much longer than that.... Huh. The M4 Vixen sounds very nice... and it's rated well in Transworld. I'm not too fond of the graphics... but it sounds good. I donno. I'm too indecisive. I also really like the Forum Craft. I just might like it a tad bit better than the m4....

I wish my stars could align....

 (in reference to every one of Sarah's blogs posted today)

 

Hah. Aaaaah... : (

 

My future... is currently going... nowhere.

 

But hey, life is good right now, and I wish that could be all that mattered and all right now, but all this college talk is just pissing me off and stressing me out so badly that I don't even want to go. I'm going to, of course, but my god... could it be any more stressful?!

School can kiss my ass!

 

Oregon was sooo fuuun. Me and Jordan are moving out there next summer... dead serious. I hope so anyway. I will do all that I can to make it possible. This place f*cking sucks. Me and Jordan got home today and there was newspaper thrown all over the yard. Stupid ass people piss me right off. Elkhart is so jank! I want out... sooooo baaad. I'm going somewhere next summer. I don't care if it's for a month or if I end up living there, I am getting out of this stupid hell hole.

 

Anyway, on a somewhat happier note, Swiss opens in approximately 117 days... or 3 months and some odd days. Horray!

 

 

I am so dumb. I always turn some problem into my life. Like, it has nothing to do with me, but it affects me so bad anyway. I hate it. I've been here once in my life before and it sucked because it literally sucked me in... and it's happening again. Not that anyone knows what I'm talking about lol... but that's okay. K bye.

Oh my god I hate this time of year! I always get too excited for Winter this exact same time of year until it starts to snow, every year. Good thing we're goin to Oregon in August!!! I'm sooo excited, except I'm nervous lol. I hope it does me some good though. Hah I can't believe my parents actually said yes. That was the best day of my life. I just keep thinking about going up north and seeing all of our homies from the year before from up there. They're all so cool, I wanna go back so bad! I'm sooo gonna live up there, the people there are so cool. Oh my goooood I'm gonna die. I also hate that when I get so excited for winter at this time, I start looking at new apparel even though I don't need it (well, I think I'm gonna get a new jacket... one that's not white. That didn't work too well with the rust and grease and junk this year) just because it makes me feel like winter is closer. Geeze. We need to start having reunions over the summer lol. Swiss should have a preprepreseason party lol in the summer so that we can all just talk about how we wanna go snowboarding so bad. And maybe that's a dumb idea... lol. Oh well. I just start to miss seeing everyone, even the people I don't talk to. It's just seeing them because they mean winter for me lol. It's the environment ya know? It just wouldn't be the same without them lol. I'm gonna go look at stuff now... I'm debating on whether I should buy a new board or not this year. I really love the board I have now, but I think I want one with a little more flex... but I love it! I'll get a new one if I find one I can't live without, until then, I'll pimp up my old board lol. Good idea! I hope everyone is enjoying their summer!