Hello good fellows of a snow world! i send out greetings to all of you who stood around !!! how r you ms jade? what r u up to? let me know! (good friend you've always been to this strange guy i am). how r you snowy_arrow? great girl...great soul. let me know about you too! and that person i care about...

Kris...sorry to notice it all went away and u say nothing at all...silv..great girl...thank you...Pialein...see you in portugal ina few months.  weird?? weird is the world being this way...dont care how weird going for a drink or a coffeee can be. SoniaEd! an old friend around here...how r things sonia??? let me know....

the ones gone...amy, laura and others...hope you're all doing ok! and respect for all the others i never heard about but r pretty much great people.

 

Well...i gotta go! stay good, be strong, love you all!

 

what a few thought would last forever...died. sorry to disappoint you Kris.

a bit of us dies

the day we let all go..

we get used to it,

get used to fail,

to be a faul in a imperfect world.

 

the day you fail

to those you love

you understand the absence

The lack of feelings.

 

the day you miss a funeral

the day you fail those trusting you

the day you let the whole world down

the day you try not to change the world...

its the day you fail...

 

the day rain falls on you

while everyone around

Stands under the sun..

 

'I will never let you fall'

becomes a broken promise..

your arms are weak,

You cant stand tall...

 

Life is a waste

Changes are starting

You are still the same

New waves are crumbling

Towards you..

 

Fall into deep

Walk away from the guitar melodies..

its all over again...forever.

Let the scars stay open forever

Theyll watch u go down the soil

Watching you die

Watching you in every memory left behind..

 

ill be there for you,

still we stay strong..

the time is short..

my die is set for tomorrow.

Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me.

[Chorus]
And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took out.

No, I won't let it go.
Douse myself in gasoline
So Don't save me when you come into the fire.
I'd rather die than have to see your smile.

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Would you be there for me?
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

You made me swear
You made me swear
I, I can't sleep.
Realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart (you made me swear)
into dust (you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind (you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside (you made me swear)
Smash apart what you created.
How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was It was yours, yours to begin with.

And if my lungs still let me breathe,
Will you be there for me?
If i can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away

Falling down your face

Not rain

Not even a tear.

 

Falling to the floor

Where others once have walked..

Falling in the past

Where no-one will find it..

 

It is the only little thing

Theyll have to prove its you,

Its the only little thing

That will connect them to you..

 

Another drop

Falls on the ground

A drop of nothing immortal.

You've got a single drop

Left into your heart

Ripped out of your soul

Ripped out of who you are...

 

Tears have fallen moments ago

Now,

On the floor,

Falls the last drop

Of the blood you've let out...

 

 

it sucks....not in any mood to write....just thorn apart...

Say a prayer,

say your last goodbye.

Leave me here, leave it all behind.

Bury this, walk away, let it die.

For a day, for a stitch in time,

this was good,

this was all worth while.

But I'm a fool,

it's not you,

and I can't lie.

 

You shouldn't hang on,

it's already gone,

don't wait by the phone,

i'm not coming home.

You shouldn't hang on,

it's already gone,

gone away.

 

Take a breath,

take a last good look,

give it back,

give back all you took.

You can see,

it's not me,

like you should.

 

You shouldn't hang on,

it's already gone,

don't wait by the phone,

i'm not coming home.

You shouldn't hang on,

it's already gone,

gone away.

 

So say goodbye for the last time,

just like the last time we did.

Die for the last time,

I'll give it up,

going on, on.

 

Say a prayer,

say your last goodbye,

leave me here,

leave it all behind.

Everyone that you know let you down.

 

You shouldn't hang on,

it's already gone,

don't wait by the phone,

i'm not coming home.

You shouldn't hang,

it's already gone, gone away.

 

Say goodbye for the last time,

just like the last time.

Say goodbye for the last time,

just like the last time.

Say goodbye for the last time.

I found it's over i'm a fallen soldier lost in all the madness trampled
by the last kiss woke up with the first tear watching as the smoke
cleared leave me where you found me the world falling around me wave
goodbye watch it die i'll pretend i knew it honestly i believed in and
out and through it stood untill the last day waiting for the life
change if the fight is over forget what i told you thought that we
could pull through but i already lost you leave me where you found me
the world falling around me.

   Whats the use

of a 5 star hotel room

With no-one to share it with?

 

Whats the use

of a bottle of wine

With no-one to taste it with?

 

Whats the use

of a 5 star hotness rating

With no-one to share...

an inner beauty?

 

(words are nothing but words.

Words for me are thoughts

Feelings, emotions.

Words are the only way I will say

Hello! or Goodbye...

the only way u'll know for sure...

You're in my heart.)

 

 

dedicated to the person that at 1.40am of November 29th, 2006 told me how big my heart is..with no specific words.

i watch the sun

I bless your chest

I hear your breathing

I heard them fighting.

 

Centuries left to reality

Far behind in existence.

Bless the sun child

Let me live with thee

On a country left to be

Encountered among the islands

And seas...

 

I died today

I watched the rain

It is time for me

Let loose the pain...

 

I aint got love for you

Them or everyone else

I've got a lost soul

Sharing a big heart...

 

*

   i would like to know what it is to be special...are we diferent from others? or ignored like them? are we prettier than them? or just more idiot?

 

Do we stay in a special place like the special people do? or is special just a thing to make us feel better...?

 

Honestly...special is a way to more easily get depressed!..

 

dont be special..be yourself....

 

And though I hoped its gonna pass me by
Ive got to tell and so Ill try
Im shooting high
I got to scream
So Ill scream what the hell does this all mean
Its buried deep
Its harder every day
I see the people they dreaming in the subway
They got to keep on moving and they dream of life
They dream of living beneath a human sky
They look familiar but theyre a million miles away
And though its hard we decided we got to stay

We block our ears
We close our eyes
We keep it low
We dont realize
To be a human
Human being
Its so much harder
Than it may seem

Back street tears falling in the setting sun
You think its over but man its only just begun
Then ten oclock news is going on for human sake
Then moneys calling so theyre goin on commercial break
Think of the bodies that lies in Brooklyn bridge..
Just shut your mouth stay in line and stay out of reach
New york is burning and its all ok with us
You try to swallow but your shi*t aint going down
And everybodys running everybodys turning around

This is the setting of the big apple sun

A foreign knight in a foreigners town
I see you blushing cuz you know they tied you to the ground
City of lights flashing in your eyes
You cant see nothing cuz they feed your greedy mind
Your heart is going for the people that lies on the streets
But you work so hard your so damn tired so f*ck that guilt
And theres so much more I have to say
But my time is over and I think you know it anyway
And in the end you know its true
The way youll end up well I guess its all up to you

 

(www.purevolume.com/benlavain)

 

And if I had the soul
The one that leads to the top of the world
Id raise my head and call
The loners of societys cell
And as well make our way
From here to the top of the world
Theyll ask me why I stayed

My fear was greater than my fall

(www.purevolume.com/benlavain)

I was born in a land that you might know
You heard them talking about it on them T.V shows
When happy times didnt come my way
I thought of leaving but hoped for a better day
And wide awake I was dreaming I could see
The meaning of my leaving
Turning to reality
A childish dream knocking on a grown man's heart
I guess I'll never stop until I'll reach the top
My mother always use to hate it
My mother hoped for me I'll forget it
But you know I'm the same
I was born in a land that you might know where money is not freedom
And Christmas never shows\
When happy times didnt come our way
We thought of leaving but hoped for a better day
And opportunities means you have to leave
Over seas higher goals to achieve
And so I did and it's been
And it's been a few good years
So far away but I have never been so near
My mother.

We didnt get our freedom it's something we had to take

 

(http://www.purevolume.com/benlavain)

Why not to stand alone?

Why not to keep life to my own?

 

Why not being here,

While your closed eyes love the greed?

 

Why not standing by myself,

When my thoughts are forever your own?

 

Why not stand in the dark,

And watch the couples go by?

 

Why not smile for Im on my own?

Maybe Cuz the tears i wont cry,

Are for the love wont give me...

 

 

miss someone i dont know who...

The streets are dark, my pulse is flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and I forever


As I round your corner
I am nervous that you won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale complexion won't blow
my cover
You answer the door with your innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?


Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love


My brain is pumping an unusual secretion of lust
Your eyes are softer now
and your chin, it drips a bloody color of rust
I am raising up the stakes of this round, I am playing for
keeps
Oh, would you like to leave this human race, tonight?



Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love



Follow me into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely town
We're both better than this, it's not worth being down


Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love


Follow me into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely town (eternally)
We're both better than this, it's not worth being down
(eternally)