Holy crap people love me..is that a bad thing?
My friend johnny owns 3 furniture stores in sacramento and offered me a job working at his new store for 35-40 a year depending on how well i sell..better i do the more raises i get.
My problem however was not so much a job it was my bills(due to me not working for the past 2 weeks) So as a trade for coming and working for him he is fronting me the money the cover all my bills this month.
My life needs to calm down a little bit..i cant handle this everyday is completely diffrent from the next. My questions for myself are as follows.
Do i acctually craft my own fate?
If so are things only so complicated because i complicated them myself?
Who let me make my own decisions?
Where is this person...i'll kill'em.
Answers(yes i answer my own questions)
In some ways my choices determine my future but on the same note i cant control the unseen factor to the equation of life..ergo it would be impossible for me to fully "craft" my own fate.
As for complications only being in my head and things acctually just being really simple..i think that could be..save for the fact that these "complications" are all thanks to the lovely medical systems of HMO's and their improper care of patients, thank you america for staying ontop of filling your own pockets before treating those who are sick.
This one is a tough one..I blame free will..if only i was subserviant(sp?) then i'd just be dating some big burly woman who would tell me what to do "yes, dear" it till the day i die baby! But i cant do that..i wanna mess all my own shiet up..then kick myself in the teeth for being such an idiot.
Final sumation-
My life blows and i f*cking love it.
Bitch slap the whole UCdavis medical center and tell that biotch to gimmie my scans(ITS NOT A TUMMA)
I'd kill myself for being such a jackass but that might make to many people happy..soa living on i shall go.
