sh*t. I'm not doing anything, not having a party or anything. I never expected it to get here quite so fast, really.

It's going to be interesting, being the second oldest in my grade.

Well.... not really, since I don't think anyone really gives a f*ck about my age, they just consider me to be automatically younger than them. 

I'm still owed a few presents (kind of conceited sounding - but really I was promised gifts this year), so I'm a little apprehensive that what I get this year might be some piece of crap off the bargain shelf, like what happened on my 7th birthday. That was embarassing. No one wants zebra striped nylons. Apparently there was some horrible mishap and someone thought that nylons meant socks or something, but really, who shops in the girl's section for a boy???!!! 

Anyway, if your birthday is also on December 17th or Tevet 10th, or around this time, then MAZEL TOV!!! Have a great day!!! 

Gogol. Yes Gogol. His writing is alright, but I think he is too much of a parody, and gets more credit than he is worth. Solzhenitsyn and Dostoevsky did it first; he copied them, the little rascal. I think I will return Gogol early, but maybe I will read some first, to see if my initial reactions are indeed correct. However, I find Mayakovsky to be absolutely fantastic. He is a poet, mind you, so he is out of their class altogether, but like Dostoevsky because they both served in exile. However, Mayakovsky is much more outspoked, provocative and simple. Yes his writing style is simple but highly charged. I don't know why I find his writing to be sooooo good but it just seems that way to me. Perhaps it is because of his outlook on life in general, and what he brought out of the chaos, as he called it, inside his head. Goodness knows he could have stayed in school and been a civil servant. That would have been such a total waste. What he gave to Futurism and many other isms is quite remarkable. I'm not sure that he should be called a poet, though that is the title which he called himself. I think that an "intellectually inclined poetical revolutionary" would be more just to his talents. 

I think that communism and leftism has been radically misjudged. Not only is it assumed that Stalin's protege is the ultimate in a goverment of that type, but that every that could possibly be done could only be worse, not better than his prototype. It seems this stance was taken because of all the "hard feelings"over the Cold War in general. However, it appears to the naked eye that Putin is attempting to return to the "old system" by iniating laws and rules from that era, and removing improvements inserted by the likes of glasnost and perestroika. It is sad, really, to watch such a great country, which has the great chance to turn itself around, go to waste in such a hurry. Putin has corrupted the system thus far, and there is no doubt he will continue to do so in such an archaic manner, much to my charign. Leastly, it is not as though a single opinion could ever make a difference to what will happen with his government. A group of dedicated individuals could do it, but a single person such as myself? I highly doubt it! Why should a patriarch pay any attention to the lowly serf who plows his land and grows his food? What right does he have to speak out? According to the patriarch, none at all. This is the vile view upon which Putin thinks of the lower classes of mother Russia. Not only will he return to the old system, but he will drive it into the ground, like an axe does a wedge. 

I still have one week left of my winter break. This is great; not only do I get to relax and hang with my chums, but I get to recollect all my thoughts and stock up on lined paper for my work. Hopefully it will not be tooooo hectic when I get beack because we are going to start reviewing for our exams! YIKES! Every time I have to take exams I freak out about it and go beserk. Hopefully I can cram successfully this time....This is turning out to be a totally rad break; for my birthday mum got me Monty Python's Search for the Holy Grail. It is absolutely hilarious! I have not laughed so much at a video in a lllooooonnnng time. My favorite scene is the one with the knights of Ni in it....HEAD KNIGHT OF NI:

what a foolish thing to do; put my trust in a skipper....fee fy fo fum....

why do I keep rambling on about totally random things, I don't know....I guess it's just my style but style isn't really about what you say but more about what you say or do. Goofyness is a style to but it is so much more random that anything funny or hilarious can be classified as the new random because random is apparently in. I don't know why I am typing so fast but is frun to try and guess how much WPM I have....I used to get 35 but now I think at best I could perhaps push 30 in a typing test but sometimes I get really slow and lazy and take llloooonnng breaks....I have no idea why I keep hitting the CD eject button here on the laptop but I think it is because it is near the delete button and sometimes I need to use that button to communicate. Why is my writing going on this long I don't know but I have the truthful feeling no-one will ever have any remote interest in reading something that should have been killed off like 4000 sentences ago. That is sad, I wish people wouldn't do such things because anyones opinion, however biaseed is just as important as anyone else but that is not what society seems to expect of us. There are to many expectations in life because life itself is just enough of an expectation for human beings without putting in any of this popularity crap which seems to be de rigeur these days. Why is society is such a slump I don't know....Perhaps it is because we rely on technology to do everything for us instead of going and doing it outselves. This computer is a perfect example, albeit one which I never, ever want to give up or trade in for my life. Not really but communicating with others is pretty key for me right now I guess. I like being able to access the world at my command instead of vice-versa; it's tough being the doormat and nobody likes being stepped on. Why is it that I don't like being a doormat? Well, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been one because by the time I get to be 20 sooooo many people will have walked all over me it isn't even remotely funny. I have no courage to stand up to people face to face and that can really get in the way sometimes. Also, being weak-willed and shy is rather debilitating but anyone can get through anything if they try hard enough. I guess I just have to try harder, like when I do my weights. If I know I can succeed I will succeed, simply put. Next time I go up against a challenge I am going to try to think of that instead of "Oh what should I do now?" It seems like my basic instinct is to try to figure out how to keep my problems from killing me without doing much but this doesn't work well because I have toooo many problems. Everybody has toooooo many problems; life isn't fair and isn't going to get any fairer until we try harder. Or at least I hope that's the way it's going to be; I sure hope the opposite doesn't happen because I think a lot of people would be unable to have any understanding of what was happening to them and why. Boy, have I typed a LOT....I hope my fingers are okay....But hey, it felt nice!

I've just been reading a bunch of rather old posts from this site (mostly central but skateboard.com is FULL of them....)

I have no idea why I do this....obsession = not!

Abstractism is the sin of the wise...or isn't it?

This weekend has been a little annoying I must confess; I tried to go sledding and bashed my tailbone into a piece of ice, which sucked....But afterwards I got to see this little kid plaster his face into a chain-link fence, which was pretty mean of me to enjoy such a vile thing but it was funny.....from a distance.

He hit the fence so hard he bounced backwards. What an idiot. He had lots of chances to bail out but waited to crash into the fence. 

What a mean thing to think.....sucker!

Another thing which is particularly bothersome is their strive to make us all the same. 

Another thing which is particularly bothersome is their strive to make us all the same. 

A: Axat (Hungary)

B: Bottom Row (Germany)

C: Czakan (Germany)

D: Demolition 23 (Finland)

E: Evidence One (Germany)

F: Fatum (Poland)

G: Gorky Park (Russia)

H: Harem Scarem (Canada)

I: Inspector (Russia)

J: Jax (Germany)

K: Nikolo Kotzev (Hungary)

L: Lionsheart (U.K.)

M: My Little Funhouse (Ireland)

N: Nemesis (Hungary)

O: OffRoad (Russia)

P: Purtag (Tibet)

Q: Quireboys (U.K.)

R: Ruscha (Russia)

S: Stella Maris (Israel)

T: Trilogy (Sweden)

U: Urgent (France)

V: Vanilla Ninja (Estonia)

W: Wittnezz (Switzerland)

X: X-Ray (Japan)

Y: Young Guns (Russia)

Z: Zodiac Mindwarp and the Love Reaction (U.K.)

but that doesn't mean they're any good: ha ha ha....

Aha! I have a goal! I'm going to get the name of 1 heavy metal band for every letter of the alphabet.... 

it would be nice....to get to sleep

for once

something is very compelling about having  my words posted on the net but I cannot place what it is....

I wish I had something profound to say (really)

I hope people don't just pass me by as another chip off the old block; I would rather be another totally new block but I have a bad feeling that that is not true at all with most people. That was a total run-on sentence. I think I ate to much candy tonight; I feel like **** and this happens everytime I get high on sugar. No more gummy bears or jujubes. Gosh I luv gummy candies. Oh well, something to add to the list of chronic health problems. Maybe Vegan ones would be better.