What good way to start off a week....I have all my money for the dance and the darned fool I'm supposed to buy from ins't there even! SUCKS!
what a foolish thing to do; put my trust in a skipper....fee fy fo fum....
why do I keep rambling on about totally random things, I don't know....I guess it's just my style but style isn't really about what you say but more about what you say or do. Goofyness is a style to but it is so much more random that anything funny or hilarious can be classified as the new random because random is apparently in. I don't know why I am typing so fast but is frun to try and guess how much WPM I have....I used to get 35 but now I think at best I could perhaps push 30 in a typing test but sometimes I get really slow and lazy and take llloooonnng breaks....I have no idea why I keep hitting the CD eject button here on the laptop but I think it is because it is near the delete button and sometimes I need to use that button to communicate. Why is my writing going on this long I don't know but I have the truthful feeling no-one will ever have any remote interest in reading something that should have been killed off like 4000 sentences ago. That is sad, I wish people wouldn't do such things because anyones opinion, however biaseed is just as important as anyone else but that is not what society seems to expect of us. There are to many expectations in life because life itself is just enough of an expectation for human beings without putting in any of this popularity crap which seems to be de rigeur these days. Why is society is such a slump I don't know....Perhaps it is because we rely on technology to do everything for us instead of going and doing it outselves. This computer is a perfect example, albeit one which I never, ever want to give up or trade in for my life. Not really but communicating with others is pretty key for me right now I guess. I like being able to access the world at my command instead of vice-versa; it's tough being the doormat and nobody likes being stepped on. Why is it that I don't like being a doormat? Well, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been one because by the time I get to be 20 sooooo many people will have walked all over me it isn't even remotely funny. I have no courage to stand up to people face to face and that can really get in the way sometimes. Also, being weak-willed and shy is rather debilitating but anyone can get through anything if they try hard enough. I guess I just have to try harder, like when I do my weights. If I know I can succeed I will succeed, simply put. Next time I go up against a challenge I am going to try to think of that instead of "Oh what should I do now?" It seems like my basic instinct is to try to figure out how to keep my problems from killing me without doing much but this doesn't work well because I have toooo many problems. Everybody has toooooo many problems; life isn't fair and isn't going to get any fairer until we try harder. Or at least I hope that's the way it's going to be; I sure hope the opposite doesn't happen because I think a lot of people would be unable to have any understanding of what was happening to them and why. Boy, have I typed a LOT....I hope my fingers are okay....But hey, it felt nice!
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Published by Broderick: 11:35 PM
Updated On: 12/4/2006 at 11:54 PM
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