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Thursday, February 14, 2008
Staring at
the one star
That fills
the night sky.
My
troubles turn to ashes
And blow
away.
Sitting on
the rooftops,
Laying in
the fields,
Looking
out my window,
You’re the
only star I see.
The only
star I reach for.
The only star I want.
You're the star I need.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
The
Open Door
Waiting
at the open door,
Watching
the world spin,
Hopeless
and alone.
They
all walk past,
Too
afraid to enter,
Too
stupid to realize,
That
reality is faded.
Too
jaded to notice,
The
open door.
Death
bites his lip,
Waiting
for me,
Watching
for me,
To
close the door.
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 4:48 PM
Updated On: 2/1/2008 at 4:04 PM
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i couldnt think of a name for this so any help with a name would b appreciated...
The days go by, like being in prison.
Separated from the world, I’m all alone.
Separated from you, I’m all alone.
Lines cut deep into the cold stone walls.
Four down, one across,
Four down, one across,
Four down, one across.
The walls start to fill.
Even a blind man could see my sorrow.
I wish upon a star that’s already burnt out,
To share a smile…
Share a gaze…
Share a heartbeat…
Share a kiss…
With you.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Even on the darkest nights
She can make my eyes shine.
Even in the empty nights
She can make me feel whole.
Even on my worst days
She can always make me smile.
Even on the coldest days
She can make my heart warm.
But rarely is she ever
Here to do those things.
Rarely is she ever
Here to see my pain.
I can’t tell if it’s bad luck
Or maybe I’m cursed.
Either way I’m all alone
And she could care less.
She’s broken my heart
And put it back together.
Each time, another piece
Is missing from the puzzle.
I give her another chance
To fix what she broke.
I give her a second chance
But she could care less.
I want to forget about her
The feelings I feel.
The dreams I imagine
The need I have for her.
She’s all I can think about
All I want to think about.
All I need to think about
All I think about.
I want to call her mine
But that will never be.
I try everything I can
But she could care less.
Saturday, December 08, 2007
The
ashes of the fallen,
Settle
at our feet.
We
walk over the dead,
The
pieces of meat.
A warm
quiet breeze,
A red
sun glows.
Eyes
glazed over,
Yet
no one knows.
The
lives end,
The
battle goes on.
So
many dead,
The
fights never done.
The
birds don’t sing,
No
kids around.
On
days like this,
There
is no sound.
The
lonely souls,
Wandering
alone.
The
surviving few,
Are
on their own.
Their
lives spared,
Their
friends’ lives lost.
Tear
filled eyes,
Like
seeing a ghost.
Monday, November 19, 2007
I
can feel your hands
Inside
of my own,
But
when I open my hands
You’re
not there.
I
can feel you breathing
On
the back of my neck,
But
when I turn my head
You’re
not there.
I
can feel your lips
Softly
pressed against mine,
But
when I open my eyes
You’re
not there.
You’ve
been gone
For
so long,
I
miss you
So
much.
In
my mind you’re a blur
Your
face starts to fade.
I
want you back
Can’t
take it anymore.
My
heart is buried
Alongside
of you.
Lost
in the dirt
Six
feet under.
My
hearts in your grave
Keeping
your cold body warm.
I
want to move on
But
I loved you.
I
wanted to spend
The
rest of my life
With
you
Because
I loved you.
Now
you’re gone
Far
from me.
Far
from anyone
But
still in my heart.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Only
the strong survive
So
grab the bull by the horns
And
give ‘em hell
Run
into the dark
Ready
for anything
Unafraid
of fear
Bars
can’t hold me
Cages
can’t keep me
But
my heart can slow me down
Undying
strength
Unreal
power
Unafraid
of fear
Fight
through the pain
A battle
that must be won
Because
only the strong survive
But
am I strong enough?
Friday, November 02, 2007
Restless
nights,
Waking
up sweating,
Disturbing
dreams,
Heartbeat
thumping.
Running
for my life,
Never
looking back,
Aimlessly
wandering,
Never
looking back.
My
heart rate settles,
Slows
itself down,
The
faces in my dreams,
Every
one, frowns.
Everything
is empty,
Everything
is dim,
Nothing
feels right,
Everything
is grim.
Turning
around seems,
Like
something I must do,
Face
my fears and fight,
A
battle I cannot lose.
I finally
turn to see what I fear,
I
find an angel, fallen and weak.
She’s
the angel of my nightmares,
The
angel I seek.
She’s
beautiful, she’s perfect,
But
she’s only a dream.
She’s
everything I ever wanted,
But
she’s only a dream.
Will
she ever be real?
Ever
be someone I can hold?
Will
I ever find her?
Or will I forever be cold?
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 11:52 PM
Updated On: 11/5/2007 at 2:44 PM
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couldnt think of a name for this
let me kno if u think of anything...
A heart
can only hold so much,
Till
it fills and explodes with love.
When
there’s nothing for a heart to hold,
You
can’t help but look above.
Coming
with questions,
Looking
for answers.
But
darkness is all I see,
Sadness
like a deadly cancer.
As
time continues to move,
Alone
I stay.
As
the day turns to night.
Lost
alone I stay.
I don’t
know where to go,
I don’t
know where to turn.
I don’t
know where to stop,
Someone
to love is all I yearn.
I put
out my hand,
Waiting
for someone to grab it.
All
I am asking for,
Is
someone to hold it.
Will
you hold my hand,
Make
everything better again?
End
all my heartache,
End
all my pain
Saturday, October 27, 2007
The
one thing I've learned,
From
everything that's happened to me.
Is
that there will always be tomorrow,
And
everything isn’t what you see.
Being
fearful of what’s ahead,
Can
lead you down the wrong path.
But
denying the truth,
Will
have you feeling loves wrath.
Cold
nights precede dark sunrises,
Waking
up becomes far too hard.
A night
filled with agony,
Leaves
my body sore and scarred.
Tomorrow
will always come,
Whether
you want it to or not.
The
only thing you can do,
Is
accept it and give it a shot.
Maybe
tomorrow is your day,
And
it will all get better from here.
But
you will never know,
If
you keep living today in fear.
I’ve
already lost what I thought I found.
Even
in the dark my tears are seen falling.
I
was so close, I was nearly whole again.
My
heart, back to the way it was, broken.
Meant
to be alone, meant to die just the same.
I’m
living life one broken heart at a time.
Then
again I should be used to it by now.
It’s
not the first time it’s happened you know.
Every
girl I’ve ever met has been like this.
They
say they like you, they say you’re cute.
But
what they really mean is give me your heart.
So
I can step all over it with my foot.
Take
the already broken parts and break them some more.
It’s
black and blue from the pain I’ve gone through.
Hands
are cold again, having nothing to hold.
Heart’s
cold again, having nothing to feel.
Eyes
are cold again, having nothing to dream.
My
whole body’s cold again, having nothing to live for.
No
one listens to the boy with a broken heart.
No
one cares about the boy whose feelings are in ruins.
If
you tried walking a day in my shoes,
You
think you would survive?
If
you tried living a day in my life,
You
think you would make it?
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 11:03 AM
Updated On: 10/12/2007 at 1:03 PM
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Two Worlds
Split between two worlds,
One of old, and one of new.
I see in the eyes of both,
What I see in only a few.
But what if both worlds,
Are just not for me.
Both turn me away,
Both look out to sea.
The only place for me,
Is somewhere out in space.
Where Im far from both worlds,
Gone without a trace.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Invisible
Join me on the other side,
So I dont feel so invisible.
Join me on the other side,
Cuz I dont want to be alone.
Sitting in the back of the room,
Staring at the back of your head.
Thinking about what to say,
But nothing is ever said.
Id rather die alone,
Than live without you.
I wouldnt have started the race,
If at the end it wasnt you.
Join me on the other side,
So I dont feel so invisible.
Join me on the other side,
Cuz I dont want to be alone.
So many things I want to say,
So many things I want to do.
So many places I want to go,
And do everything with you.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Still a work in progress
Social Disaster
Wake up every morning,
Always at six fifteen.
When I go to catch the bus,
My clothes are neat and clean.
The first bell rings,
Beginning another long day.
I walk the halls alone,
No one even looks my way.
Cuz Im a social disaster,
Everyones worst nightmare.
I dont know what to do,
When no one else cares.
Walking down the hall,
Trip over the loose shoelace.
Everyone watches,
As I fall flat on my face.
You cant bring me down,
When Im already on the floor.
You cant stop me,
When I walk into the door.
Cuz Im a social disaster,
Everyones worst nightmare.
I dont know what to do,
When no one else cares.
And I dont know what to do,
When everyone makes fun.
And I dont know what to do,
So Im just gonna run.
I head for the door,
But come up short.
I try to get,
To my last resort.
Cuz Im a social disaster,
Everyones worst nightmare.
I dont know what to do,
When no one else cares.
Where am I? What is this place? A big bright sun, Shining in my face. I remember falling, And then blacking out. But I don’t remember, The sun being out. It was the middle, Of a dark, cold night. I remember the moon, Getting smaller in flight. Why was I falling? Why am I here? The place where I fell, Must be near. I remember now, Where I fell from. It was very high up, And very calm. I was standing there, Far from home. I remember now, I was all alone. So this must be heaven, And I must be dead. There lays my body, Completely blood red. I got away, From all of my pain. And I’m finally free, From this cloud of rain. I’ll be waiting, For you mom and dad, For now I’m in heaven, And I’ll never be sad.
A tear is nothing more,
Than a raindrop in the sky.
Falling from the clouds,
That hang over my eyes.
They roll down my cheek,
While I lay there unaided.
Staring at an empty ceiling,
Wondering why I’m so jaded.
Time passes by,
Like the hands on a clock.
I sneak out from my room,
And go for a walk.
Where I’m going,
Not even I know.
But where I will end,
You don’t want to follow.
I fall to the ground,
At the edge of the cliff.
Tears fill my eyes,
And I begin to wonder if,
I’ve made the right choice,
Coming here tonight.
To try and end it all,
With one final flight.
Sitting on the gravel,
I look back and hope.
That someone cares enough,
To pull out a rope.
And pull me away,
From the end of my pain.
It would have been so easy,
To die in vain.
But I couldn’t get myself,
To go through with it all.
I just couldn’t get myself,
To take that one last fall.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Can You Hear...
Can you hear my heart beat,
As your head lies on my chest?
Can you hear the words I say,
When I tell you you’re the best?
Can u hear the whispers,
I say into your ear?
Can you hear my fingers,
As I run them through your hair?
Can you hear the stars,
As they shine in your eyes?
Can you hear the moon,
As it shimmers in the sky?
Can you hear the memories,
That you and I made?
Can you hear the rustling,
In the grass in which we laid?
Can you hear all the moments,
When I took your breath away?
Can you hear all the years,
That begin to come our way?
Can you hear the words,
That you tell me too?
Can you hear me say,
That I’m in love with you?
Monday, December 04, 2006
_______________?
Please just let me go,
I don’t want to hold on,
To this false sense of hope,
On the dark side of the sun.
Tears fall into the hands,
Of only the saddest few.
But a knife to the wrist,
Is what most of you do.
And my tears don’t fall,
Too far from home.
Each one, a reminder,
Of how I’m alone.
I dig myself out,
The hole for my grave.
As I realize how hard,
A life is to save.
It’s hard to tell,
Just what’s real.
When I have lost,
All reason to feel,
Any emotions,
Good or bad.
End up as,
A time once had.
A memory in stone,
A dust covered wish.
A black and blue heart,
And a broken promise.
I’m fearful of the past,
With regrets of reality.
It’s my last day in hell,
And I’m escaping my tragedy.
_/\_A_Fallen_Hero_/\_
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 12:33 AM
Updated On: 12/6/2006 at 3:00 AM
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Friday, December 01, 2006
this is my best poem...or at least i think so
no one else seems to think its my best tho
i just found out yesterday from my dad that this is being published in a book!!
im very excited!!!!
let me kno what you think...
Do you know what its like
Waiting for the world to stop?
Waiting for the right moment
And the first raindrop?
It’s hard waking every morning
To my same old empty verve,
Knowing that today will be the same
Is this really what I deserve?
The rain falls to the ground
As do the tears in my eyes,
While a piece of me
Slowly begins to die.
Do you know what its like
Listening to the rain drop?
Listening to the silence
And hearing my heart stop?
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 6:42 AM
Updated On: 12/1/2006 at 12:18 PM
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Friday, November 24, 2006
I hate not knowing,
When knowing too much can hurt.
All the signs, all the hints,
All the times that I flirt.
Does she even notice me,
As something more than a friend?
Or am I stuck with just a thought,
Of what we could have been.
Every time a thought of her
Slips into my empty mind,
I get this strange feeling
Deep inside.
This feeling inside fills
The missing part of my heart
But I cant take the feeling
Of being apart.
The terrible nights
Of being alone,
Staring at the ceiling
Still as a stone.
Every couple of seconds
A tear falls to the pillow,
And as soon as it falls
Another one follows.
Each one is a small piece
Of whats left of my heart,
I find myself alone again
Lost in the dark.
Knowing too much can hurt
Where it counts the most,
But not knowing can leave
A scar that wont be lost.
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 5:25 PM
Updated On: 11/30/2006 at 11:35 AM
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Whats the point of wishing?
When wishes never come true
Whats the point of striving?
When Ill never make it through
Whats the point of dreaming?
When all of my dreams fail
Whats the point of searching?
When Ill never find the trail
Whats the point of living?
When everyone wants me to leave
Whats the point of hoping?
When I have no reasons to believe
Whats the point of pretending?
When all I can do is cry
Whats the point of breathing?
When I just want to die
Whats the point of living?
When no one wants me hear
Whats the point of smiling?
When you can still see my tears
Whats the point of me?
When memories fade away
Whats the point of staying?
When I cant take another day
Whats the point of this race?
When Ill never see the end
Whats the point of praying?
When youll never be my friend
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Published by A_Fallen_Hero: 8:05 PM
Updated On: 11/18/2006 at 11:03 AM
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