dreams of ecstasy slowly fading into the dark of sobering night
like wind sweapt willows crying out in the fog for someone to hear them
i say not a word as i watch my heart end
in a silent bang it dies
with no remorse i walk away feeling nothing and everything
it flows through me entwining itself to my being
suffercating my life
moreover i must go and disappear to the land of the dead
the land of the forgotten memories
to wait in slumber for the day that you come again
to bring new life to my wearly bones and lift me from my shallow grave
like tissue paper holding in it the delicate rose that will be given to the love
that with it will speak the hopes and fears of tomorrow as its thorns drive themselves into your flesh
a thousand knives carving their credos into your arm
you shriek out in devilish joy at the pain that has befallen you
with a silent grin you drive them in
its the most alive you have felt in ages
the pain of life so brutal and clean
like love only without the secret that holds us all together
the secret that makes us shudder in the wind at the thought of being alone and the fear of being together
oh the joy that awaits if we accompish the task oh the agony that will swallow us in the end
broken shards of glass line the house in which i live to remind me that i am alone
haven't seen another in years don't know if i am the only one
the day is spent looking for some thing i have lost
i don't know what it is
i had it long ago that is all i know
i don't know its shape or size of why i lost it
but it was important it was mine
you gave it to me
you must have
no one else would give me something so special
damn i wish i knew what it was
i hid it so that i would always have it
to keep it safe
from those who wished to take it
will you help me find it
come a little closer now and look me in the eye
what do you see do you see right through me into my inner being and out the back of my head
do you see the little lost child that i hid there hid deep inside and threw away the key
thats me
come closer still touch her hand
she is cold and scared
protect her love her
break the lock and set her free
i want you but i don't want to loose me
i want to show you that i am not scared of living
but i can't stop myself from dying
i want to show you i can love you
but i can't stop the self loathing
i'm a mess of knots tied up tight
weathered in to a solid clump
i should be cut up and burned
please don't leave me i don't want to be alone again
i'll leave you stay i know heartbreak anyway
please leave i can't stand your stares
i can't stand the love in your eyes
i want to be alone again
dreams of
ecstasy line my mind like a crippled fort in the foothills wounded by valent soldiers who can to lay seige to me
you can't make a home here amongst the cluttered memories of you
there is no room
not even for me
can i stay with you tonight i don't want to be alone
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Published by 360double: 2:38 PM
Updated On: 4/29/2007 at 2:47 PM
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